Can I talk to you about tonight?

How the air felt chillier when I was walking towards nowhere… Alone. How the night seemed darker even though the moon is aglow. It felt like I was being compressed and depressed and pulled into different directions, I was afraid I might explode if I don’t implode first.

Can I talk to you about tonight?

How I went through the pain by pretending to be strong. How I finally felt the true magnitude of everything that happened. They all fell on me in a single blow, crushed my heart and gnawed on my soul. Have you felt the same? Do you feel the same?

Can I talk to you about tonight?

About the things that I wanted to say but just couldn’t. About the things that I should do but just wouldn’t.

About how I sometimes resent you because you’ll be okay no matter what…

Because you’ll be loved no matter what…

Because you’ll never feel alone even if I go…